Life On Life's Terms

Addiction runs deep, I can make anything unhealthy. And have. I have went from self-harm, to eating disorders of a sort, to drugs and alcohol, to sex and relationships...so if my life and it's craziness can help anyone, just one person then that's all I care about. It's only from the help of a Higher Power and the program of AA and NA (which can be applied to anything)...and has helped me to grow tremendously in all areas of my life today.

Follow me on my road to recovery from the addictions that can haunt so many...

Tufts 10k!!! I Did It!!

6.2 Miles - 1 Hour 48 Minutes

It was an amazing feeling of accomplishment, and a year ago I did not see myself standing in the shoes I am in today! It just goes to show you, when you believe in yourself, really, anything is possible!!

But I Need This To Remind Myself, Of Who I Was, And Who I Am

~~~Not For The Faint Of Heart~~~LOL, if you can’t look at a fat bitch than I am sorry for you!

I put this up so I can see, all the work I have done since January. So when I want to think I can binge and stuff and eat all crazy, I can’t. I have so much to look forward to. I am running my first ever 10k in less then 3 weeks! I would have never thought I could be doing this, when I was overweight and stuck in that cycle. 

I am in school now, so it is easy to want to make bad food choices, and eat cheap, easy shit. But that isn’t going to keep me feeling and looking awesome and I know that today. And when I don’t feel good eventually I will end up using drugs, because for me, food only does so much. 

But I have so much in my life today, and I am grateful beyond words for all of it, I don’t post often and I apologize, but I have a four year old, I am taking three college courses, I am very active in my AA/NA community and am training for this 10k. Hopefully soon I can slow down a bit, but not for nothing, I love my life today…

Sobah In The Sun 2011
Just spent 4 days in the wilderness with thousands of sober people. It was an amazing experience. One I will never forget. I can’t wait for next year. The bands were amazing. My best friend made her debut and rocked the house. There were midnight meetings around campfires, and soul changing shit man!!!!!! Fuck yeah!! I am so blessed today, if it wasn’t for the gifts of recovery I would never have gotten to experience that! God is good all the time!

Sobah In The Sun 2011

Just spent 4 days in the wilderness with thousands of sober people. It was an amazing experience. One I will never forget. I can’t wait for next year. The bands were amazing. My best friend made her debut and rocked the house. There were midnight meetings around campfires, and soul changing shit man!!!!!! Fuck yeah!! I am so blessed today, if it wasn’t for the gifts of recovery I would never have gotten to experience that! God is good all the time!

Priceless.

Good tunes in your ears. $ 0.00

Feeling your feet hit the pavement early in the morning. $ 0.00

Almost knocking yourself out with your own tits…PRICELESS

FUCK YEAH!! 10k Here I come!!!!!!!!

FUCK YEAH!! 10k Here I come!!!!!!!!

Omg Thank You!!

LOL Thank you guys all for the follows and reblogs! I love this shit man! I will try to be of help to any and all as much as possible cuz y’all help me too! 

Progress Not Perfection. 

Holler at me if you’d like, I am pretty chill. I would love to hear about you guys as well! 

If you’re going through hell, keep going!!!

Inbox Me Some Shit Hey!

Lol For Realz! We gonna get this Mean Irene Hurricane LOL ….

Questions? Comments? I am bored as fuck! And have busy as hell with signing up for school and all that! So I would love to her from some of my followers!

I Post This For A Remember When…100 Pounds Ago

And it was almost 9 months ago that I was that girl. I am no longer her. I am happy when I look in the mirror. Not only because I have lost weight. That is only a mere symptom of the real underlying problem. I have done loads of work to figure out how I let it happen in the first place. Why I let my emotions be the reason I chose to overeat. 

I apply the 12 Steps of AA to every aspect of my life. I manage to stay clean and sober, remain cutting free, and not overeat. That is only from the miracle of this program and the people in it and my Higher Power. I look at myself. I can lose weight, yea sure, but I am damned if I don’t see why I had gained it all in the first place! My life is full of blessings today and for once I can say I am truly happy!

I have signed up for college, and am gonna be doing a 10k in October, one my aunt has been asking me to participate in with her for years. What a sense of accomplishment that will be! 

Believe in Yourself.

Big Things Kid!

No one else can do it for you.